2k13

  what a cliché title. well I haven't written here for about 7 months, and this honestly feels weird. I haven't written anything to myself in what seems like ages. I don't know if I'll ever use this blog after this post but who knows, I'd maybe post some random mind rambles where I tend to spill out everything that's in my head. 

  so 2013. well, 2013 for me has been quite shit if I have to be honest. I've had major panic attacks, my social anxiety has worsen and there was one point that I literally felt like I didn't want to exist. no I didn't feel like I wanted to kill myself, but I just felt like it would be so so so much easier if I could just disappear and never even existed. everything was so tiring and I gave up about 87% of the time. explains the shit results I got for my major exams. ((and so much friend drama it's not even funny oh my go d))

  in about mid May, I started this fan account and honestly it's the best decision I've made in a long time. I made loads of new friends that I love and cherish so much. you know who you are.

goes to show not everyone on the internet is a 56 year old pedophile. cough. 

  the only devastating part is that I won't be able to meet them physically anytime soon. well FaceTime and Skype works for the time being I guess.

  well, 2013 has been a shit year but I met so many people that helped me overcome it and I'm so so fucking grateful to have found them. I literally don't know where or how I would be if I haven't met them. 

  I'm sort of glad that 2013 is gonna be over because I really need to start a clean slate and I need to learn from my many mistakes I've done this past year. it's been a blur to be honest. 

  I have a feeling that 2014 is gonna be a good year for me. no one knows for sure but hey, a girls gotta dream right? 

 cough

Midnight

    Hey guys. I finally found out what made my posts look so retarded sometimes lol I accidently posted by HTML and not Compose. Wait nevermind that sounded too technical haha. Today was okay. The science exam was pretty easy. I don't want to be too confident though. I went home to find out that I forgot to turn off the air conditioning in my room so it was already cold when i reached home. That was a pleasant surprise. Ordered  McD and just chilled the whole day. Took a bit of a nap too. At about 8pm I had Geography tuition. After that, I Skyped a little with Putri and now I'm here. Oh God, I just realised it's already 2 am haha

  Well this was just an update of my day. I'll may be posting later tonight. Bye loves xx

Panic

Its midnight now and i have a Science exam tomorrow. Well fuck. Today I had my Religious Studies exam which I never even studied for. Right when I received the paper and wrote my name, I started to breath really heavy and fast. I felt my face becoming red. My eyes started to water. In my head I just kept repeating "No, not again." Yes, I had a panic attack. The last time I had one was right around this time last year. And from the same reason. But that one was a big one and it lasted for 2 hours. The one today lasted for 10 minutes. I really hope i wont get one ever again. It does not feel good. i think that's all. I'll update tomorrow. Bye ;)

Reunited at last

Hello blog! My God it has been a long time since we cross paths. I've missed you! I have not been blogging in about 5 months! That's insane! I used to blog 2 times a day haha. I haven't been blogging because i forgot the email to this blog. Well, I do have 5 emails. dont judge me ok. haha um 2013 has been okay. my class is okay. everything's been okay. i think. well, idk really. Anyways, i know this post is really short, but i'll be trying to update daily. love yall. <3

Lazy

This holidays been pretty much shit actually. I don't have my phone because my parents think I have been mis-using it(and by parents, I mean sister). I don't have Twitter anymore because my sister found it and read my tweets. So something about cursing and swearing and bringing down my family's name. I actually can't use the Internet anymore because of that. I'm using my old iPad in secret. Doesn't my life sound like fun? The only source of Internet I have now is this iPad(which doesn't support Instagram and YouTube, and I only use the safari and sometimes play the games) and my mum's iPad which I only use for Instagram and Youtube. But if I watch something that my parents may disapprove, I'll just change the app to Temple Run when they pass by me. So yea, my parents and siblings think I laze around playing Temple Run all night. Last week, I went on my first camping trip. Yes, I'm fourteen and I have only been to one camping trip in my whole life. Anyway, it was really fun! Most of my friends in class didn't go to the camp because their "parents won't allow them to". Right. First day of camp: Right when we arrived, they gave us food. The food there was okay. We got assigned to each dorm. I was dorm one with most of the form 2's. We had the best time. I slept at the bottom bunk because I was scared I would fall... And I was scared to actually get up there. The first actual activity was Ice Breaking. Typical. The people at the camp were pleasant. None of them seemed horrid or annoying. It was all fun and games. Except when I had to dance.. The chicken dance. Oh God no, never, NEVER AGAIN. So after that we went for a little night walk. It was creepy and there was ants biting our ankles. lol but the night was nice and chilly so it was okay. I was placed in the same group as some of the seniors. They were really nice! I actually know them quite abit because we were in the same primary school. After the night walk, we went into the hall (WHICH HAD FUCKING COLD AIR CONDITIONING) and one of the facilitators talked to us about his experiences in camping and such. HIS NAME IS MR REUBEN. I REMEMBER THAT. After that we went to our assigned dorms to sleep. It had just rained so the night was quite cold, we didn't need any air conditioning (and the air conditioner was broken but oh well). There were some bugs.. Like tiny moths and such, but they didn't bother actually. And then I slept like a baby. Second day: I woke up at 5.45am. Almost everyone had woke up and showered already and I started freaking out. Showered with ICE COLD WATER and shampooed too because we didn't have to get out of the dorm until 6.30am. Calm yo tits Nadeera. Everyone found me weird for shampooing lol I really can't start the day till I shampoo my hair (now you know why I'm such a wreck every time I go to school). Had breakfast and had some dancing thing going on. Weird. After the weird dancing thing, we went FLYING FOX-ing. I have to say, that's the most bad ass thing I have did this year. I screamed about half way through the thing. But it was literally fun. We had about a 2 hour break after that. Everybody went to their respective dorms and took naps. I then decided to make a fort for myself to ensure the bugs not to disturb me when I sleep. Since I slept bottom bunk, I hung some unwanted blankets all over the top bunk's frame thing. I then sprayed the whole thing with bug repellent. Yea. Everybody in the dorm called me princess lol. Took a tiny nap. We then went jungle trekking (ie, second bad ass thing this year). I thought it'll just be a short walk to the river. No. It wasn't. At all. It was about a 3km walk to the river. But it didn't really feel like it, mostly because we didn't really know how far the river was. The walk was.. Interesting. lol no actually I have no other adjective to put there.. Ok. The river was ice cold. Literally. But it was really refreshing. And the river was really clean. About half an hour later, we went out of the water and headed to our dorms. It was drizzling and everything was muddy. My flip flops went into a puddle of mud and nobody can tell the colour of em anymore. Continued bare footed. Still fun. When we arrived at out dorms, I straight away showered and shampooed and hogged the whole bathroom lol. We had to go to dinner later and I just went with a towel turban.. No, I didn't give a fuck. Went back to the dorm and had some quality time with dorm mates. We played the first impressions game. We had to share each others first impressions. I forgot mine lol ops. And then we slept. Third day: woke up at 6. Went to the hot springs. It was nice because the morning was cold and the water was warm. Went horse riding. I like horses. They were so cute OH MY GLOB. (wait horse riding was on the second day.. But I'm too lazy to retype it lol ok) We played a game on sand and I got some weird sand burn on my foot lol. Tried to put Vaseline on it but it got worse.. I think petroleum jelly cooks your foot under the sun. We then packed, had lunch and went back home. So that's it with the somewhat interesting camp. I'll most probably update tomorrow night about my favourite you tubers. I'm out. BYEeeeeeeeeee

Cats slurping Cotton Candy

I don't know whether it's the hormones, but these days I just coop myself in my room, listen to sad songs and cry myself to sleep. I can't help it. Maybe it's because I don't have that "special someone" to talk to everynight and day, at anytime. I don't mean to sound whiny or anything, but it's just sad. I really got my heart broken before this. I don't intend to make more damage. Its funny how I just heard Louis Tomlinson of 1Direction singing to his girlfriend Eleanor, and I start crying. Maybe it's too cute. Maybe it's because I'm jealous of Eleanor. I mean, what girl wouldn't? Not just having a perfect body, but also have the most amazing boyfriend. It's sad. I'm still crying here while I type this. Stupid hormones.

Whut

Hi. Didn't really intend to make this post but people keep on asking me to update my blog. Hellllllloooooooo. Well, my exams are a month away.. Wth. Studying, but mostly discovering YouTube. My laptop doesn't support YouTube :( So I mainly use my phone. I have to use earphones.. Funny story. I dropped my phone in a tub of Nutella (Did you know that Nutella is pronounced as new-tell-uh? Wow).... What a delicious mishap.

Anyway.. This week has been normal. Homework mounting. And teachers placed all the oral tests together. Big whoop. And there's History coursework to be done. Almost finished.

Cheer's normal. A lot of newbies. I remember having to be like one.. So amazed with how the seniors do strengthwork. Now... I'm still amazed. But I've gotten better....... I think. Been back spotting a lot nowadays to give the juniors a try. They do quite well! There's practice tomorrow, looking forward to it (Yes, I still go in secret). I'm so touched that quite a number of people look up to me. Serious. I don't find myself being an intelligent person though.

I'm pretty tired rn. Just got back from school. School is okay. But.. I don't like a group in my class. No, I don't mean that I dislike the people in the group per say, I just mean that I hate the fact that a group exists in out class. The people in the group are wonderful. But, everyone in my class is extraordinary. But I wish that everyone goes along with each other and don't need to be in the same "gang". I'm gonna get hate for this but, oh well.

Awesome Possum YouTube accounts;
NigaHiga (duh everybody knows him)
LuxyHair (they do hair tutorials lol)
dicasp (my favorite one now. Omg he's so cute and I love his accent, looks and hair. *fangirling*)
jacksgap (adorable twins alert!)
thedominicshow (Apart of YTF, Dominic! Or better known as Dtrix. He is so cute and I love his hair lol. Yes, I have a soft spot for guys who have big and fluffy hair)
kevjumba (Also apart of YTF, Kevin Jumba. He is so cute omg. Oh, I'm mostly attracted to Asians. Idk. I love his father, Papa Jumba)

So yeah I think that's it. Oh, should I make vlogs? But idk how lol :p

So badass

No, you're not badass that you're talking back to your parents. That's rude.

No, you're funny if you judge a person of their appearances. That's mean.

No, you're not cool for not raising your right hand when we say the pledges. That's not respectful to our country.

No, you're not hot when you wear hot pants or spaghetti strings in public. That's disgusting and a disgrace to to your family's name.

No, you're not popular because you have a lot of boyfriends. It just means that you're a whore and you just get up to each guy that says hi to you.

No, you're not rich when you keep on asking your parents money to buy a 700 dollars worth of shoes. That's just wasting your parents money to buy something that's not important in your life.

STOP IT.


Yeah I know I'm not like the best or the most beautiful in the world or anything but these people should just stuff their attitude in their fucking assholes. It's not badass. You're just a disgrace. A fucking disgrace.

Something about bird catching

It's been awhile since I blogged. And since I even seen my blog. It hit 5000 viewings! Thank you all. So this post is actually to show y'all I'm not dead or anything lol. Been pretty busy with school and cheer. How's cheer? It's fun! D*Starz Jr took part in Cheer 12 and C3. It was pretty good. I'm gonna miss the team. Since my last competition, my parents disapproved of cheer. Short skirts.. Yeah you get the rest. But I have been attending practices with the seniors secretly. I can't stay away. It's like this magnet pulling me towards stunting. So now coach is gonna call my mum soon. Pretty nervous. But I really hope he gets through her. Recently, Puan Chris, the cheer advisor in my school, told me that coach has high expectations for me. The pressure...... Ugh. And she said I have to be stronger. She didn't state mentally or physically, so I'm assuming both. And during the next practice, coach told me that his ambitions for me is to be the best female single base of all time. THE PRESSURE. So yeah I'm okay with the strength work, it's the handstands that I'm not good at. I dont think I have enough upper body strength.. Well it's okay, I can always improve. He says that he believes in me and he wants me to be the best I can be so I can prove to the people who underestimate me that I can do all this shit and not break down like they expect me to. This is why I love coach. He's so motivational that I can literally cry. But to tell you the truth, I love cheerleading. I really do. I don't care if I'm being a back spot, a base or even just a front spot,it's the rush when the flyer hits that perfect spike or scorpion, or even a heel stretch or bow and arrow, it's always beautiful. And while being the base, you will always be proud of yourself. Because you brought that flyer up there. Without you, it's just a sad girl stretching on a mat. Being a spot? You will always catch the flyer when you need them. Without you? THE FLYER WILL INJURE THEMSELVES. If you feel like you are useless, STOP. You are important as everyone else is. Sometimes, I like doing the strength work. It shows that I really want to be better, for my team. And cheerleading helps me. Helps me lose weight, helps me become stronger (physically and mentally), and confidence. It's the rush when you get on the mat and see the crowd. When the music starts, you don't see them anymore, you don't. You are too focused on your tumblings, cheer and stunts. Before you know it, it's time for the pyramid. It doesn't even feel like 2 and a half minutes. Feels like 30 seconds, tops. So this is why I love cheer. Not the short skirts, not exposing my skin. I wish I had the guts to tell all these things to my family but no, I don't. I always rely on coach. Sad isn't it?Cheerleading is my passion. Nobody can change that.

Polyvore

Hipster Clique by nurainnadhirahab featuring black bangles

Colour Virgin by nurainnadhirahab featuring a vintage white dress

Pinkalicious by nurainnadhirahab featuring wedge sandals

Every man has a price

Hello beloved blog. Haven't seen you in a months time. Blame my cats. They chewed off my laptop charger. lol. So a lot has changed. I'm now in D*Starz Jr! No more a sub. I worked hard for it and I finally got it. But I couldn't do it without Mrs Christina, Coach Wong Wei Lun and Coach Wen Li! We had our first competition on 16th of May 2012, and it was a day to never be forgotten.

D*Starz Jr Pyramid! I'm somewhere in there. lol

Arch during the pyramid. (Everybody's favourite part)

And of course, we didn't miss the chance to camwhore.

Meet Noor Iyraputri

Meet Aida Ilyana

Meet my beloved seniors! Ashwini (Middle) Sabrina Ho (Right)

Meet Putri Nadea Adrianna

After the performances, we had to wait for our bus. We waited for about 3 hours and been informed that the bus was trapped in the middle of parked cars. But that didn't stop us from having fun. Some cheerleaders tried basing for the first time. And some tried flying for the first time. So overall, I wouldn't change a thing.

Yesterday, D*Starz Jr had a 6 hour practice! But it wasn't full out practice, we had a pizza party too.

Meet Coach Wei Lun.

Beloved junior, Nadia.

Beloved juniors, Nur Sabrina (right) Sarah (left)

Beloved senior and captain, Emmy Tan

Beloved junior, Aniyah Aira.

Beloved junior, Tan Yi Lin.

Aniyah Aira and her pro toe touch

Sabrina and Aniyah's pro scorpions.

Pretty much a satisfying day.

♥ Nurain Nadhirah Ab

Unagi!

           Hi! Long time no see. Been busy with shit. A lot has happened. Don't know where to start, so let's just start with something sleeping right beside me.

          I got new kittens! Their names are Godiva and Bounty. My sister adopted them about a month ago. Here is the picture:

             They're a wonderful addition to the family. Kudos to my sister!

              I'm a substitute for D*Starz Jr. I'm so happy. 2 people had quit, so I'll probably take one of their places. Maybe. Went to all the practices. EVERY practice. I'm such a good girl. :') I hope I can pull a spike by next year. To those who don't know what's a spike, this is it:

                     I dream too big. lol. 

                    Remember my previous post? Of the rings and such? Yeah, I bought 3 of em. So proud. Hahahaha. And then I just discovered my sister has a shitload of em. Thanks.

                      You jelly right now, I know.

I'll maybe update later, my mind is blank now.

Fashions fade but Style is eternity

 

             So yeh hi. So bored to death right now since there's nothing to do. Anyway, I just felt like talking about fashion. What I really want right now are rings. I really don't know why, before this I just thought of rings as just a wedding ring. But now, it's a statement. Not that I have any rings or whatever. These are just some I've been laying my eyes on.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

     lol okay that's more than just some. I also have really deep love for shoes. Always wanted to buy those really high heels, but I will look like a giant since I'm quite tall.

 

 

 

 

              I would kill to have these shoes.


             I like dresses too. Omg I'm such a girl these days.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

      Damn.